I am amazed when I look back to that day in October 17, 2011. It was one of the scariest days of my life. I have grown as a person so much since then. So many things have improved over the last several months. I still have a ways to go and work to do but I am already feeling like a new person.

To think that eight months ago I was very extremely suicidal and chronically depressed is surreal. To look inside myself today and compare me now to back then is amazing! I am a totally different person today! Some of my beliefs that I hold close to my heart now contradict the person I was last fall! This is a great thing!

I learn and I grow as a person each and every day! I do not believe in wasting time or missing a new learning experience! I strive every day to become a better person! I have totally different role models now! To say my life is so different is an understatement in itself!

I cannot get over just how much I have learned about myself and life. For the first time in my life I feel like an empowered woman and I must say that it feels amazing! It is very true that knowledge is power!

The most important thing I have learned recently is to trust myself and my intuition. It still takes some practice but just knowing that I can take care of myself now and do a good job is priceless. For the first time in my life I am learning to control my emotions which are helping me to become a better decision maker.

Another lesson I have recently learned is that life is what I make it. I choose my thoughts and how I feel. In the past when people tried to tell me that many of my problems were self-induced I got furious and wanted to tell them just how stupid they are! Who would want to live like I was living? Who would want to make their life the living hell mine was? What I failed to realize then that I have learned very recently is that your thoughts are like boomerangs. The universe is like a mirror. When I sit and dwell on the negative and all the bad things that can happen to me the universe reflects those thoughts right back to upon me. So my negativity was having the boomerang effect upon me. I was basically cursing myself and making my life the living hell that it was! Thoughts are very powerful! Our mind is even more powerful!

Now I operate my life in such a different way. The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is to count my many blessings! I do this every morning and every night before I go to bed! I show the universe my attitude of gratitude. I do this because if you are not appreciative for what you already have the universe will not see fit to bless you with more.

I now monitor my thoughts during the waking hours. I pay attention and correct myself when I think negative thoughts that will not serve my purpose. When I get scared, anxious, or stressed I say positive affirmations to myself. I remind myself that I am a beloved child of the universe and that universe takes care of me now and forever more. I envision the life I want and focus on success, prosperity, happiness, peace, and anything positive that will help me instead of harm me.

Every night I take the time to clear my mind of negative garbage and meditate. Meditation is priceless! You must always be kind to your mind! It is like changing the oil in your car. Your mind needs its own oil change to run properly and keep from burning up. You must clean it and rest it every night so that you can think clearly and more positively. Meditation does require consistent practice but is so well worth the effort.

I have learned that I can have as much control as I want in my life if I just take it and believe in myself. No one can make you do anything that you do not want to do! No one can make you feel in any way or think anything that you do not want if you stand firm and choose not to! It has been such a blessing to learn that I do control my own thoughts, feelings, and emotions and that I am safe in this world!

It is so empowering to learn that we are what we choose to be! I can play the victim or I can be a victim. It feels so much better to be a victor and a survivor rather than to be the poor defenseless victim now. It blows my mind now to realize just how many choices that I have in life now by just taking the time to think and learn about life!

Each and every day I learn to love myself and take better care of myself. We cannot love and take care of anyone else if we do not do this for ourselves first. My self-esteem and self-confidence grows with each and every day! I now wake up looking forward to the gifts that each new dawn brings with it!

I have learned to love and appreciate my life and I am truly happy now! Life is beautiful and joyous! I no longer take anything for granted!