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5 Inspiring Steps to Give Your Life a Makeover

I am sitting here right now reflecting on my progress. I am so pleased with myself right now. I am overcoming my fears and stepping outside of my comfort zone more and more each and everyday! I am seeing progress weekly. Last week, I wrote an inspirational article and submitted it to my favorite website. I am so glad that I did not let the fear of rejection stop me. I quit making excuses and just went for it! It got selected to be published on the website! I was over the moon!  I am still so excited and happy about this! It may be a small step but it is a step in the right direction! 

I have so many hopes, goals, and dreams inside of me right now! I am so filled with inspiration and motivation! I wrote two more articles tonight and submitted them! I am crossing my fingers that they get selected for publishing as well!

In the past, I allowed the men in my life to become obstacles. I always put others needs before mine. Instead of working towards my goals I always put my Husband first!  I ended up bled dry and lost myself in the marriage. This way of life did not work for me. I ended up depressed and on medication. I ended up becoming a shell of a person. 

I would struggle to get out of bed in the morning. I dreaded the activities of each day. I would do all that I could to avoid life and not have to deal with anything. I finally figured out why I was like this. It was because I had no hope! I had no goals or dreams of my own. I sacrificed my life for someone who did not appreciate me or what I was doing for them.

Now all of this has changed. I now have so much hope! I have numerous hopes goals and dreams and now I strive everyday to chase them! I write myself a to do list and everyday I work hard to work my way through my list. I look at each step as one more step closer to the life of my dreams.

What are those dreams you may ask? I would love to share them with you because I am very proud of my choices these days! I want to become a Life Coach, a Motivational Speaker, and a New York Times Best Selling Author. I am working on writing books about my former life as a Victim of Domestic Violence. I am studying for my Bachelor’s Degree in Psychology with a minor in Sociology. I want to become a Life Coach and mentor Victims of Domestic Violence. In addition to this, I want to motivate and inspire women. I see myself becoming a modern day version of Louise L. Hay (Author of “You Can Heal Your Life.”) I want to make a difference by teaching Women that you do not need a man to complete you or define you in any way. I want teach the value of loving yourself first. Through my gift of writing and my articulate manner of speaking I choose to make a difference in the world.

I believe that if after the hell I have endured in my life that I can heal and change for the better that anyone can. I want to take my pain and suffering and turn it into a positive by using it to change lives for the better. I want more than anything to make a positive difference in the world. I feel that my purpose in life is to inspire and motive people to strive to become the best that they can be! Please check out my article on Purposefairy.com!




As many of you know I have been struggling and have been through hell and back. It has been a very long dark road for me! I have been so confused and lost for so long. I have prayed so many nights and came up empty. I have had so many days when I was very angry, bitter, and just wanted to scream!!! Some days I did scream and lose my mind! I was so broken and very afraid. There were days when I was so afraid that I did not get out of bed or get dressed. I went days without caring for myself.

I literally looked everywhere for answers. I felt that God left me all alone in a dark room. I felt as though I was walking around this dark empty room feeling around for a light switch for years. Today I found my light switch! Tears of joy are rolling down my face as I type this! Not angry tears, not sad tears, not fearful tears but joyful tears!

I had a rough night last night. I could not sleep no matter how much I prayed and told myself it was going to be a peaceful night. I do not know if my blood sugar was too high or if my anxiety disorder was disturbing my sleep or what. All I know is that I could not rest. I overslept and then when I awoke I just could not get out of bed. I then remembered it was Sunday and I needed to go to church. I was so tempted to say that I was sick and needed my rest. The old me would have remained in bed all day. Suddenly, something different happened. I felt a voice speak to me and say, “Get out of bed you cannot miss church today!” I then knew Pastor Alex had a message from God just for me!

I struggled and struggled to get ready. My flesh kept making excuses but I ignored them. It was so tempting to stay home today. I looked in the mirror and reminded myself of how I felt other Sundays when I gave into my flesh and stayed home. I reflected upon the guilt and remorse. I almost stayed home because I did not have time to put my makeup on because I was too exhausted to get moving. A voice spoke to me again and said, “God does not care about the makeup!” “There is a message for you at church and you have to be there to hear it!” So I threw clothes on and kissed my Mom bye and raced to church! At first I was ashamed of my appearance but that faded very quickly when my new friends that I recently made at church hugged me! I felt so welcome and loved! I then knew I was right where I needed to be!

So many nights I cried and asked God “why I am going through this?” So many times I asked, “Why God do you make me suffer like this?” “Why God do you allow me to do without?” “What have I done so bad to deserve this or that?” So many questions and I felt that God left me on call waiting without any answers! I felt that God locked me in a room and forgot all about me.

Today I finally received an overflow of answers from God! I can finally see clearly! I finally have peace and understanding!

Now I know why I have been suffering and struggling! I can now see God’s reasons! It all just makes sense now! I am so excited!

Finally, some much needed answers!!! God has been pruning me! God has been trying to wake me up! He had to get my attention! I kept ignoring him and his calling and he had no choice but to get tough and humble me so that I would listen to him!

I had my accident and when my 3rd Husband left me I gave up on God. I lost my faith. I left Gods perfect path and turned my back on him. He did not lock me away and forget about me! I threw a tantrum and turned my back on Him when I did not get my way! I kept numbing myself with pills instead of doing Gods will! I let myself go and I had a pity party. I just kept numbing myself and refused to step out of my comfort zone. I even quit thinking about what kind of role model I was to my Daughter. I left God alone; he did not leave me alone! I did the leaving!

I now see that I have not been doing my very best. I quit doing anything that required any effort. I did what was easy. I have not been living up to my full potential. I have not really been pushing myself to do better. So God had to get my attention. He had to push me to wake up and see where I was wrong.

I now see if my life did not spiral out of control I would not have woke up and evaluated things. I would not have felt the need to change anything had my life been comfortable and I had everything given to me. If God had not of pulled the rug out from under me I would still be laying there stagnant. Had I not experienced major loss I would not have come crawling back to God. I would not have felt the need to put forth any effort to better my life. Why change if nothing appears to be broken? Without hitting rock bottom I would have continued to be selfish and believe that God left me! I would not have been forced to look at things another way and see the error in my ways!

I now see that God was unhappy with the fact that I was not living up to my full potential. I was not doing my very best. I was coasting through life. I was not teaching my Daughter the value of hard work and sacrifice. I was wasting my God given talents. I became angry, bitter, selfish, and very stagnant. I expected to receive and was feeling entitled instead of being compassionate, caring, and productive.

Now that God has done a major pruning on me I am back in his fold. I am no longer stagnant. I am going to classes and educating myself. I have applied to college and hoping to become a Law Student. I am looking for a job instead of making excuses and feeling sorry for myself. Now I am so much happier! I am learning so much and rebuilding my self-confidence and self-esteem! I am feeling so blessed these days! God is now granting me wisdom and understanding since I am now doing his will and living right! I can see clearly now through God’s grace!

The point of my story is that God has a plan. Each one of us has a purpose. Just because things do not go according to our plans does not mean that God does not love us. It does not mean that God has forgotten about us. It does not mean that God does not love us enough. It means that you have to dig deep and ask yourself if you are really living as good as you can. Are you really trying to serve God instead of the flesh? Is it what we want or is it what God wants? Do we love God as much as we can? I now understand and see the difference. Had I not have lost the material things I would not be able to focus and receive God and his wisdom! It feels amazing to finally hear and feel the answers! I now have true peace and understanding! Today is the first day of the rest of my life! Praise God!!!